These are the updates so far.

I am sorry for the lack to updates thus far.

Been too busy lately.

And my writings are shelved.

I have to devote myself to studying many of my former books to be up to date in this industry.

I received my locker and various paraphernalia needed to commence work.

After Chinese New Year,

I would be putting up all my writings long delayed

And

I will also take a break from the hectic schedule of work.

I am beginning shift duty very soon.

As for the warrant of arrest

I am still awaiting it.

I need a bailor.

I was told to expect a higher sum than the initial $300 fine.

Sigh.

I will not litter again.

It’s not worth it.

Please don’t litter people.

Don’t.

I missed out a lot of outings from all corners it seems.

Due to my schedule.

And Valentines day is coming.

I have not been celebrating V day since primary 6.

And I don’t intend to celebrate it.

I am single.

And I am not dating anyone

Since attempting to date anyone is honestly very hard.

For I am working insane shifts.

HINT HINT

I take care of people and my charges at work

But I GO HOME ALONE AND NO ONE TAKES CARE OF ME.

YET YOU HAVE THE GUTS TO SAY I DON’T TRY TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU.

WOW.

FO.

I am single.

I will not date.

AND

I rather cry with my pillows that cry on anyone’s shoulder

Call me stubborn.

I wish all of you an advanced V day.

For frankly

TO ME

It’s just another day in the calendar.

I am having fun at work.

I guess the only pleasure now for me is work.

Work is like = SEX = ORGASMS DAILY now.

Is nothing.

Yet I can’t sleep tonight.

Someone asked

“Have you found the jerk who passed it to you?”

Actually I have no idea.

After working with an NGO on HIV awareness.

And asking numerous people

Even those I know to go for testing

I am led to believe

That many either already have it but is afraid to go for testing

And are living with denial

OR

They don’t even know anything about it

With the attitude that

“HIV won’t happen to me.”

What a waste it seems.

Go for testing people.

Its better to know than live in darkness.

Life doesn’t end when you get diagnosed.

Look at me.

I am living proof.

But the life you knew

Will fade.

And a new beginning awaits.

That I need a haircut

A new color blah blah blah.

People can always talk of course.

They have no idea I am flat out broke.

And pending a much more expensive fine.

Pending a mobile that might get cut off soon.

With the fact I have run out of contact lenses and I am wearing a pair way beyond its ONE day potential

And

I have zero savings.

So spare me the details of the cost of your latest pair of tops or your iphone or whatever.

Its not envy.

I am just tired.

Of listening to all this.

Superficial crap which seriously I won’t be bringing to my grave if I am dying tomorrow.

Have to wait for the 25th.

For my first dough to roll.

And stored in the bank.

So.

Stop telling me about your shopping trips.

Your latest gadgets.

Your latest toys.

Clothes.

Going out for coffee sessions

Movies

Clubbing etc etc

Really.

Stop telling me all this crap.

I don’t need to know.

I don’t need the knowledge of it.

You can tell everyone else but me.

I have zero and I am avoiding going out if possible.

I am thinking how to get to work tomorrow.

I hate taking out a loan from Mom, Dad and family Co.

Really.

A new twist to the sentence

Living from hand to mouth.

I have zero.

So what does that mean?

Means I should sleep and not bother to wake up.

OR

Waking up will bring me new counsel.

Good night.

I had a torturous week with a weekend that really brings me

No joy.

To a man who stood at the gate of the year,

I said in accent

Strong and clear.

Give me a light that I may tread safely.

The unknown way ahead

And air my words

As the air had died.

The man who stood at the gate replied

Go out where the darkness is all about

And put your hand in the hand of God

That shall be to you better than a light

To guide you thru the darkest night

And better safer far than light of day

To guide you on

The unknown way.

A time long past, I seek a land of power and Immortality

People flock to my new found land to earn a living it seems.

For commerce and economy was the key to the ports of money.

Built their towers high the immigrants did.

Yet I died still.

Your future in this very land I found?

For the ones that laughs to the banks

Are just not worth it.

They don’t know anything.

Yet they freely judge.

Twice I was called incompetent.

And irresponsible.

By people who I thought are more “matured”

Fine.

So be it.

You are entitled to think as such.

I won’t bother to explain.

As I maintained from day ONE whenever I meet anyone new.

YOU ARE NEVER OBLIGATED TO ME.

I gave you that option.

YOU HOWEVER FORGET

THAT I AM ALSO NEVER OBLIGATED TO YOU.

Though I try.

Apparently.

Tall orders is what you people believed in.

2 letters for you.

FO.

Go figure.

For calling me incompetent and irresponsible.

Thank you very much.

I appreciated it.

Now I am placing you where you belong.

How will I interpret my year?

Will it trap me?

Or am I pouncing onto the pastures?

As natural as above.